The Last Hope

It was a cool morning...
After a tight sleep, leaving all tensions behind the night. I waked up slowly...
nothing much was there to plan and think for today. Not only for today, it was like since a long back...


juz after taking a long breath i got re directed to me.. my self...
'been thinking... and 'realizing...


when I realized there is no more option, after making a debt of huge amount, I planned to move to get poison with the last 20 bucks with me.
while moving I turned back, hearing my name. It was jackson, my mate.. He is doing some kind of small business like lottery and all there.
during the talk, I smiled of thinking, this guy will be surprised to hear my news tomorrow and would have told to his hearers like "I had a chat with him even very recently and there was no mention of such an accident.." 


suddenly, I was shocked of the question asked by him "man, get one lottery of juz 10 bucks and 1st prize is 1 Billion.. " after a stopping a while he continued..
 "draw is about to be held tomorrow noon.."


I was too thinking..


the Last hope..


Lottery costs juz 10 Bucks..


Rest 10 Bucks will be there to get poison, tomorrow afternoon..

sorry

I couldnt realize you and anything...

U didnt even tell me anything..

the biggest secret which has been hidden in your smiles and talks..

the real meaning of your life, which has been carried through out your life...



I am really blooding today...
my soul too..

confessing myself and dedicating the rest of blood and tears before you..
even knowing, that your blood, that has been sacrified for me, wont be brushed away with my tears..

sorry my dear..
sorryy..

Follower

today
I am alone in this darknes..

there was a time, I had all and everything like the brightness of sunshine.
and that time, there were plenty of pals around me to share me and to take part of my enjoyments.

Now, when I am surviving my days praying for a drop of light in the corner of this dark room

I could realize that even he is left away for me.. my pal, my follower since my birth..

Even without trying to understand me.. he is left away breaking my hope, hope of being my soul mate

for my life time.

my buddy mate..
my 'shadow'...!!

moral : Even your shadow -real buddy since yo birth- wont gonna follow you,
when you enter the darkness of sad life from the light of happy life...!!!